Five Rooms

Day Crew

Samantha came in and said I didn’t get paid
Something got delayed
I wasn’t meant to be hanging out with the day crew
It just ended up that way

And it feels like I’ve been waiting forever
It’s been some crazy long afternoon
It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
Living my whole life in these five rooms

Samantha looked up and said don’t get me started
I thought there was nothing to fear
Back in the beginning it was kind of unusual
Then it got heavy and weird

It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
For my heartbeat to resume
It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
Holding my breath in these five rooms

It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
It’s been some crazy long afternoon
It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
Living my whole life in these five rooms

It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
For my heartbeat to resume
It feels like I’ve been waiting forever
In these five rooms

Don’t Get Me Started

Fascinate me, assassinate me
Desperate highs, cable ties

Assassinate me, saturate me
Give me time, give it a name
Or give it away

Whatever we had can’t wash away
Set adrift in the night it comes back to you
And it will multiply
Catch your eye it’s just a reflection
Welcome to the safety of bending away
We just need to look away
If you can’t sleep for what you’ve done
If you don’t blink when you look into the sun
Then I think there’s something wrong

Catch your eye, it’s just a reflection
Welcome to the safety of bending away
We just need to look away

Assassinate me, fascinate me, give me time
We just need to look away
Fascinate me, saturate me, give it a name
We just need to look away

No Past Tense

No past tense!
Can’t we talk about a future song?
We’ve been raking up the past too long
And it’s kinda getting boring
We know we can talk about it

No past tense!
I need some value from the present more
Than every little thing I did before
I’m purposely ignoring
’Cos they’re never gonna change us

I need to change somehow
They’re never gonna change us

Late To the Party

Always late to the party
Dragging that chain
Watch the rewrites fade

Games and accusations
Tedious at best
Is it worth the frustration?

Yet, always someone with a story
They’ll try to sell ya
Up the river, or maybe it’s down?

Someone’s gotta tell ya
They’ve done it better
Resent the implication
Never let it rest

Control the situation
Always make them guess
Fall into to silence
Size up the tension

Shy away from the attention
Shy away from the attention
Shy away from the attention
Shy away from the attention

Everybody listens and everybody knows
Because everyone is watching
Everybody stares because everybody’s judging Because everybody cares

Everything is Temporary

Why do you have to say
Everything that comes to your brain?
Not everybody needs to hear it
Not everybody needs to know it
Why do you have to explain
Everything from day to day?
This unending commentary
Is it even necessary?

Why do you leave
If everything should stay the same?
The only thing you believe
Is that everything is temporary

I feel strange, I don’t know how to explain
Don’t explain, you won’t change
The changes that we see happen so randomly
You won’t change me

What did they see? What did they leave?
What did they mean?

I feel strange and I don’t know how to explain
Don’t explain, you won’t change
The changes that we see happen so randomly
You won’t change me

What did they see? What did they leave?
What did they mean?

Don’t know how to explain
Don’t explain
I feel strange
You won’t change
Don’t know how to explain
You won’t change me
I feel strange

Deirdre

Deirdre, Deirdre
This is getting hard to do
You’re not the same person that you were
When I first laid eyes on you
Deirdre, Deirdre
This is getting hard to guess
How it started out so beautiful
And ended up in such a mess
Deirdre, Deirdre
It started out so beautiful
And ended up in such a mess
We made lots of promises
They’re so hard to keep
One by one we tore them into little pieces
Lots of stupid promises
Enough to make you weep
One by one we held them up
And tore them into little pieces

Deirdre, Deirdre
This is getting hard to take
I pass by my reflection
And I feel like such a fake
Deirdre, Deirdre
I failed you so thoroughly
Now it’s getting hard to understand
Why you’re hanging around with me
Deirdre, Deirdre
It’s getting hard to understand
Why you’re hanging around with me

Outers

Thought of you as I walked to school
Came out of the blue
Hadn’t thought of you much at all
For a month or two

Didn’t breathe, didn’t want to leave
This second stuck on pause
Filled with fear
So scared I’d hear
The sound of closing doors

Can’t we go back to the way things were?
Pretend that we didn’t get burned
Can’t we go find all the things we lost
Or left too late to learn?

You hadn’t called much at all
I didn’t know what to do
I didn’t cry, I didn’t fight
For a month or two

Can’t we go back there and start again?
I’ll try not to forget
How will we know we’ve already been
As close as we will get?

Campfire

I was in the forest
I couldn’t find my campfire
I was in the forest
I couldn’t find my campfire
I thought I was sleeping safely in my tent
Something came and found me
I don’t know where I went
I was in the forest
I couldn’t find my campfire

I was in the ocean
I couldn’t find the surface
I was in the ocean
I couldn’t find the surface
I was out of courage, almost out of breath
It ain’t so funny being out of your depth
I was in the ocean
I couldn’t find the surface

I looked down and noticed
I wasn’t holding your hand
I looked down and noticed
I wasn’t holding your hand
I felt kinda frightened out there all alone
I thought you said I wouldn’t make it on my own
I looked down and noticed
I wasn’t holding your hand

Break it Clean

And they said it could never be done
Forty hours into the sun
And my heart is a loaded gun
Around the houses, the pouring rain
I will run to beat the pain
Never return or be the same
Never return or be the same

Around the houses, the burning pain
Break my shoulders to carry the blame
No one will speak my name again
Empty my feelings like a machine
Just a contender that never has been
Burn it dead, break it clean
Burn it dead, break it clean

Empty my feelings like a machine
Just a contender that never has been
Burn it dead, break it clean
Empty my feelings like a machine
Just a pretender that never would be
Burn it dead, break it clean
Burn it dead, break it clean

And they said it could never be done
Forty hours into the sun
And my heart is loaded gun
Break it clean

How We Pay

I saw you before you went away forever
I saw you before you went away
I saw you before you went away forever
Now you’re gone
And I’m not feeling any better

I’m starting to feel that you were maybe never mine
Starting to feel that maybe you were never
I’m starting to feel that you were maybe never mine
I can’t believe that I could ever be that blind
Can’t believe that I could ever be that blind
I can’t believe

What if we never got
What if we never got to say goodbye?

How did I not think how we’d get by without you?
How did I not think how we’d get by?
How did I not think how we’d get by without you?
How we’d pay, and all the different ways we’d pay?
How we’d pay

How we’d pay, and all the different ways we’d pay
How we’d pay and how would we afford it
How we’d pay and all the different ways we’d pay
How we’d say we should have fought it

State to State

Who are we to do this to each other?
Who are we to throw ’round our weight?
Who are we to fail and fail and fail
At getting it straight?
Who are we to deal out the punishments?
Who are we to come on so mean?
What’s with the malicious intent?
Can’t we keep it a little bit clean?

I moved from coast to coast to be with you
You told me I was weak
You told me I was desperate too
If you wanted me to suffer I’d prefer a fist
Who are we to do this to each other?
How can we recover after doing all this?
Who are we to do this to each other?
And how can we be friends after this?

I drove from state to state just to get close
Told you all the things I’m insecure about the most
You said I should be tougher, said I should grow up
Who are we to do this to each other?
You’ve gotta be kidding me if you think it’s gonna stop

Who are we to do this to each other?
How can we recover after doing all this?
Who are we to do this to each other?
How can we be friends after this?

Try to Find Us

They can try to find us
I won’t be standing in their way
They can try to fight us
Won’t be listening to what they say
They can try deny us
There is nothing left for you here
They can try define us
The only thing that they’ve left is fear

Who taught the hand that holds the gun?
Constructs will only come undone
What is the lesson, what is the lesson?
Are you the system or the sum?

They can try to find us
I won’t be standing in their way
They can try deny us
Won’t be listening to what they say

Who holds the hand that coddles the son?
Are they the bullet or the gun?
What is the lesson, what is the lesson?
Everything’s starting to come undone
What is the lesson, what is the lesson?

Everything’s starting to come undone
Are they the bullet or the gun?