Shock Records HIP 006. Released early 1996 on The Hypnotized Label

A haphazard collection of 27 rare and previously unreleased demos, outtakes, acoustic songs, pre - screamfeeder songs (from Tim's old band The Madmen), radio sessions, and general bits and pieces. Recorded all over the place by a lot of different people.

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Everything And Nothing

I call you by your only name and whisper in your ear / you should have brought a camera for the things that you hold dear / and you hold me / and everything turns to nothing and nothing means that much / and these times they'd be the best / if we could keep in touch / with hands across a distance with hands across a hole / withholding information with secrets from your soul / and your soul is sweet / when everything turns to nothing / and nothing means that much / show me the ways that i'd be saved / throw me something to clutch / i got here by my own device / i’ve never felt so near / too close for you to turn away / am i loud enough to hear? / and i’m calling you / and everything turns to nothing / and nothing turns to black / even if you were to leave me here / no promise you'd be back

Here

The city lights are bright so let's drive / i’m looking for something to blow my mind / most things feel fine alright / set my body alight / but i can't come home tonight / and i can't tell you why / so won't you come inside / where i will hide you here / where you might find what you've been looking for / you're running around looking for something you haven't got / do you know who it is or even what? / or must everyone live their lives remembering what they might have had some time ago? / or is it to late to say just what you think your life is for? / signs in the sky tell me which way to fly / signs in the street tell me which way to move my feet / but i don't listen and i don't read the signs / that point towards the eventual decline / but i can't come home tonight / and i can't tell you why / so won't you come inside / where i will hide you here / where you may have second thoughts about / whatever it is you're running away from / i have nothing here to offer you but the safety of my arms / and i’ll keep everything here inside of you / and keep you from any harm / can you come down and see how we all feel? / because words escape me and i’ve forgotten what is real / some reason hat you might have had is slipping from you / and now you're lost / i will hide you here / and keep you from all your fears

I Believe

Saw you on tv tonight i didn't know you were that good / gonna try and reach you but i don't know if i should / after all this time and i still think that you're ok / because when things descend on you you don't let them come my way / i’m going to look around and see what's true / and i believe in reincarnation too / i look at you and i wish i could see the world right through your eyes / it would be so easy if we could see right through their lies / so if you're gonna change / then i want to be with you / if you're going somewhere / then take me along too / because you're my hero / and when you laugh i cry / and if you leave then i will die

End Of This Day

At the end of this day will i know what you’re trying to say or will i know how to make a start? / end this day end of this hour i will open you up like a flower / and then i will know what’s inside your heart / at the end of this day will you know what i’m trying to say or will you know how to make a start? / end this day end of this summer / now i think that my time has come / and now i know what’s inside your heart / at the end of this day will you have anything left to say or will you know how to play your part? / end this day end of this year is anything anymore clear? / and now do you know what’s inside my heart?

Metal Baby

I’d like to see if you're alive / i’d like to know if the stars still survive / the sky is blinding the temperature is down / i get the feeling that you won't be around / i’d like to know if you've awoken / and if your consciousness comes crawling for the day / will it make it through unbroken? / or will it end up like the promises you made? / and i could have stopped the burning / but i couldn't stop my head from churning / so far from your returning / not close enough to be discerning / you made a policy to choose the wrong direction of all your avenues / the guiding lights on the road you drive on have dimmed and blurred and slowed down all your motion / and i don't want to hate / don't want to have a clue / it's not what i create / but it's all that i’m getting from you

Conquering Fears

I dress and shave for you each day / you said i missed a bit but that's ok / i sit down here and try and write a love song / but they're too hard to write right? ? I stop and look / you're such a pretty pretty girl / we've both grown up a bit and that's alright / because i’m her friend and it's never gonna end / i think about that a lot / that's how with heads together we're conquering fears / so you wait and stop and circumnavigate / no need to expand upon / if you cannot / so afraid to sit and try and write a love song / well take it from the top / and / you're so afraid of when it comes so slow out from / and / she's my friend / see her forever / yeah i’m gonna see her now / that's how with heads together we're conquering fears / and we tear it all apart now / and no one but ourselves left / and she'll be here for good now / and all else to forget / we're conquering

That's Ok With Me

The lights are out through town / the radio's buzzing and the telephone wires are down / all i want to do tonight is stay here at home / and do the things we used to do when we were alone / do the things we did that time we were alone / the space between us is solid / so let's break it down tonight / i know this feeling from before so let's try and make it right / the lights are out / the house is dark i’ve got nothing to hide from you / so let's stay home and be alone and do the things we used to do / tonight i’ll leave it up to you / well that's ok with me / not doing things you never wanted to / well that's ok with me / if you want to leave tomorrow / well that's ok with me / or you can stay another day / well that's ok with me / have things how you want them to be / well that's ok with me / you can dictate the terms to me / well that's ok with me / take my hand and walk with me / well that's ok with me / i’m used to treading delicately / well that's ok with me

Surprise Me

Please guard this like a diamond in your mind / please save my thoughts for they're all running wild / but you remind me of a flailing butterfly / as you quiver there in your fragile little - fragile little life / your weaknesses are betrayed in your face / something in your life slightly out of place / we all fall down but you fall with more grace / and heights are always higher in your - in your case / this night started out ok / i hope it ends that way / i feel so detached from everything / don't know how you act so cool / my head feels like a swimming pool / with people jumping - people jumping in / you can walk the line if you've got the time / surprise me / surprise me / please guard this like a diamond in your mind / someone is gentle someone is unkind / someone stays someone leaves you behind / someone saves your life and you will - you will find /this night started out ok / i hope it ends that way / i feel so detached from everything / don't know how you act so cool / my head feels like a swimming pool / with people jumping - people jumping in / you can walk the line if you've got the time / surprise me / surprise me

Book One

Some things change / some things fade / some things become frayed / there's something in my head and it wasn't there yesterday / oh how i really wish you'd stay / or go away / go away to stay / today i learned about space rockets and the stars / moving motionless the days fly by so fast / 1969 an astronaut's walking on the moon / before they sent a dog up there but she came down again pretty soon / sun keeps us warm / stars shine at night / rain gives us water and moon gives us light / snow falls in winter we can skate on the ice / wind's blowing the trees / turning frost into ice / look back on twenty years and see how far you've come / the story of your life was written when you were so young / can you see exactly where it is you're coming from? / your whole life is in front of you / and this is your book one

Smoke From Tinsel

It happens to me ten times a day and as it happens i don’t know another way / perhaps i should have worn a wetsuit to keep out of the rain but i just want it to happen again / having to hold on tightly or i’ll be thrown away / having to let go slightly so i can stay / curse me again / call my name / give a damn / how much this time? / how much will i get? / i’ve been giving it away for free and i ain’t going to stop yet / how many good or bad things will it take to change this time? / it ain’t going to take much more to change my mind / having to treat my instincts as though they’re always wrong / promises made but left behind for later on / turn yourself around / have control / have control / how to get to you before it turns around / and i’m happy when my mind can find its way around / take your time and tell me if i frown / having to wind in gently / having my mind made for me / torn in two / follow through / it’s hard to do

Car Man

There’s too much fuel in my tank / no overtaking turning vehicles, man / hope it gets me home tonight / hope it gets me through all this / catching all the orange lights / going to stay up late tonight / they can’t get inside my car / they can’t get inside my mind / my windows are wound up tight / they can’t see in through my eyes / saw nothing / traveled for miles / saw nothing / i looked down deep inside / can’t see an end in sight / biting my nails every block / i can’t slow down for all the stops / can’t slow down at all / might crash out tomorrow / drown every sound / kill every motion / i can’t turn around / i hope it gets me through all this / car man

Snail Trail

I see you / you walk my way / i see you / you walk away / you don't like me any more / i hear you / the words you say / if i had a gun i’d blow you away / i had a dream / i dreamed of your breath / i had a dream / i dreamed of your death

Weird Day

Weird day / thoughts carry me away / no feelings to convey / get up anyway / hope it makes some sense today / and i hope we find a way / ok / weird day / don't know what to say / forgot it all before i said it / said you lost your mind / i think that i’ve lost mine / but i’ll get it back in just a minute / spilt my drink out of my cup / spilt my mind you wiped it up / spilt my heart you walked away / i tripped over myself / i was trying to say what a weird weird / weird day / weird in my brain / you don't turn around before you're gone / thoughts lead me astray / i always drift away / it's been pretty strange here all day long

Hole Of Blood

There is a lot of major carnage in nature and we can only let it pass / real guys don’t want to watch the tarantula annihilate / they’d rather watch the cowboys kicking ass / but when she says she can’t have you because her hole of blood is keeping her whole / there’s a lot of bad inside the hand of every man / we don’t have to act like ants / we don’t live for the tribe / don’t have to live by the tribe to survive / it’s better to die / it’s better first that you should know some about the forces keeping you alive / don’t beat it to submission / it’s always fear that always underlies / too scared to adore / fresh orders to obey / keeping you unsure / keep your hate at bay / or does it make you bigger? / getting things disfigured / you are your own worst enemy / just admit it you don’t like alternatives / there’s a lot of indiscrepancies on board / contradictions are the only thing that’s sure / real guys don’t want to see a death they couldn’t create / they want some real action so they can relate

Thick And Shitty

All along you crave / what's the song you gave? / little thoughts to save / now they're gone - it's late / little bits i keep / little loads to heap / lose em all in sleep / let em die, i leave / **i can't remember these 2 lines** / did you learn it wrong / little locks i glue / stale crumbs of food / known a lot of untruths / thought i could have used / i should just let em fall / i get caught and snagged / i should forget them all

Know You Now

I never saw the world through your eyes / i never stopped to realise / because you'd never stop to communicate / the things i’d like were the things you'd hate / because i know how / and i know you now / and i know what it's all about / did you ever stop to tell the truth? / did you ever let me in on the real you? / because i couldn't understand the things you'd say / you thought i'd like you better that way / did you feel afraid to know? / or show me what you'd never show? / because all your thoughts and all your doubts / you don't know what the hell they're all about

Almost Past Caring

A month ago it would have hurt me / a month ago it would have made me cry / because i’ve given everything that i’ve got to give and now i’m quite content to let things lie / can't think what you want from me / i certainly don't want a thing from you / you're trying to get me back for things i never even did or is that just another excuse / i’m almost past caring / i’m tired of wasting my time waiting for something that'll never happen / and i’m tired of pretending that there's something worth waiting for / i was dangling from a string waiting on your attention / but i’m not hanging there any more / a month ago it would have hurt me / a month ago i wouldn't have known which way to go / rather than face you i would have curled up to die / but i’m over it now / well almost/ almost past caring / almost past caring

Cool Kinda Kid

Cool kinda kid has had enough of all his stuff / pushed to the edge / pain in my head / it ain't that tough / hell bent on hell / like every next one / no more of this / cool kinda kid / cool kinda kid / it's not what you will do / but what you did / can't we wind up? Can't we wind back / every little bit? / getting all wound out / getting all wound back / white turns to black / cool kinda kid getting kinda sick of all his shit

I Can't Live

Saw you near the edge of town it was the other day / saw your long hair blowing round and then i heard you say / i'm waiting for my man and it's been such a long time / he says he misses me but won't tell me if he's mine / and i'm looking and i see / and i'm thinking what can it be? / and i know that i can't live if you don't love me / saw you near the edge of town it was the other day / the night was coming down and then i heard you say / said i'm still waiting and i've lost all track of time / he says he misses me but won't tell me if he's mine / ch / turn turn around / turn turn around

Hold On

Ain’t got the flame to burn out your name / ain’t got the hammer to shatter the chain / can’t find the knife to cut you a slice / to kill off your hunger and dry out your eyes / hold on it’s nearly all gone / ain’t you going to tell me i’m wrong? / can’t find the words to make myself strong / ain’t got the strength to let it go on / ain’t got the heat to warm up your seat / ain’t got the spark to try and compete / can’t find the sugar to sweeten your mouth / i ain’t got the money to call you now / hold on it’s nearly all gone / can’t you see that it just is wrong? / ain’t got the words to make a new song / ain’t got the strength to let it go on / ain’t got the lips to give you a kiss / ain’t got the body to fulfill your wish / ain’t got the voice to sing you goodnight / ain’t got the arms to say it’s alright / hold on it’s nearly all gone / can’t you see that it just is wrong? / if you want me i won’t be along / ain’t got the strength to let it go on

Five Pointed Star

They've lost the focus / and all the hocus pocus / they want to be stock brokers / nothing like their folks / saying hippy mom and dad / look at all the fun you've had / the times have done their changing and now they are just bad / you tell them about twenty five years ago / you're lucky if they can remember ten / pity you can't just go back again / two turns and you can't win / the world keeps getting its fingers in / secrets don't last a second once out from within / never stop coming back again / they've lost the plot / out in all the empty lots / a five pointed star is all they recognise as god / satan's in the suburbs / i saw his name written there / paint it on your bedpost / you probably wouldn't dare / do you have a clue what your caper is / or are you trying to impress your friends? Is there really nothing else within? / do you really give your soul to him? / they've found the potion to drain them of emotion / got to keep it flowing / keep a constant coating / they've lost the exit / they can't find the opening / you gave your soul to him / you can't remember anything

7-11

I hear my name being called from machines along the walls / i move towards my goal / paper cups and chicken rolls / all lined up evermore / i have it in my soul / i know i can’t go home / please take me to the store / open up the oven door / don’t have to wait no more / microwave heaven is here / some noodles and some beer / and a vid for later on / for me alone / the store looks hot it looks quite packed tonight / and we could stop and stare if you just slowed a bit / and if we had some money we could go spend it / and we could stay and ogle at the counter chick / i gave my hands to her / show me where the best things are / drinks chill and coffee spills / and popcorn pops for me / at 10:55 we’ll see / she stacks the shelves so well / with tacos toothpaste gel / to clean me feed me brush my teeth / but they don’t make it heaven

Who’s Counting?

Put out the rubbish today / there’s a lot of things that i just can’t say / most of them wanting to be heard / all of them choking on a word / it’s a call that i can’t respond / since most of what i’ve said is at best half right / it’s all half wrong / facts are burnt but they’re not gone / they remain and i can't remember one / can’t remember one / took a walk down my street today / there’s a lot of cars parked in the way / reminds me of words that don’t make my mouth / a million ways to block it out / so our conversation’s lame / here's hoping my questions don't sound the same / they’re thick and fast / i'm just trying to hold what's past / if i can't forget then how will i make it last? /i can't recall the last / i can't recall the last / filled up a box today / with all the things i managed to not say / still it's a call that i can't make / a message that no-one else can take can’t take / there is a word that i can't fake / the sound of a voice going straight to tape / still it's a call that i can't make / a message that no-one can take

Better Let Go

Better let go if you're holding too tight / better let go if the end is in sight / better not give up without a fight / better not fall asleep tonight / you know you won't go but you know that you just might

Tower

There’s no one else around / and you’re the best thing in the world / so what do you want to want? / because there’s sadness in your eyes / and some place you wish you were / so let the light embrace / because we’re still heavy on this earth / i wish everything went around / and i wish there was a sound / i don’t want to be in far away places / never is anything coloured / or does it flower / this is the closest to my heaven transmission tower / if you’re scared you should have stayed / this is the place where no one goes / the edge without a seam / and we’re without a colour scheme / our eyes will swallow up the sky / never does it get darker / or does it change / never will the clouds lift / so they can make space / never will they let go / so they can take the test / never will they take flight / never leave the nest / never will they make the heavens or see the stars / never will they see the future or make the past / never is anything coloured or does it flower / this is the closest to my heaven transmission tower / there’s no one else around and now we’re more afraid / now they know how / and they’ve got the power / they’ve worked it out and they’ve built the tower / we’re more afraid

A Silence

Though i feel kind of easy there's no one left that can hear / and the wind keeps blowing outside / and there's nothing left i can fear / so i watch this yellow butterfly make a stand and make itself clear / and a rumble in the distance / and a mighty hum that's bringing all fear / and a silence seems to watch me / and a silence seems so near / as a finger grates down a blackboard / it's a silence i cannot hear / an unearthly movement through the crust / something wants to make itself known / and a dwelling through the ages / and a curse is carried home / and a grasping at the roots of all that we have known / and a grip with shivering tension as a silence turns to stone / and a silence seems to watch me / and a silence seems so near / as a finger grates down my backbone / and a silence makes me its lair / and a silence seems to watch me / and a silence seems so close / like the force of dew in the morning time / subtle / still it takes control

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